I HAVE MET MYSELF

Have you ever done or said something then looked back and wondered if that was really you or someone else? Are there times when you have thought of yourself as a very ‘good’ person then somehow something happens and you realize you are probably not that ‘good’ after all?

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When such things happen I am reminded that apart from Christ there is really no good in me. Our righteousness is as filthy rags to Him because it is Him who works in us to will and to do that which pleases Him. Anything that we do without Him is like building on straws.

I have met myself

So in love with laughter

So amazed by the beauty of the universe

So thrilled by the diversity of the human race

So intent on being the best I can be

So hopeful and eager to experience what life has to offer.

I have met myself

So gloomy I scare people away

So bothered by the uncertainty of life

So afraid of facing yet another day

Too exhausted to try and be better

Too afraid to let people in.

I have met myself

Faithful to keep my promises

Willing to understand what my fellow man is going through

Ready to lend a hand wherever possible

Eager to see everyone at peace

I have met myself

Intending to keep the promises I make

Yet tending to break them more often than not

I have met myself- a shapeshifter of sorts

So unreliable. . . so puzzling. . .

I have met myself- flawed, human.

Then I have met You

Constant as daybreak

Love so pure

Hope so real

Joy so deep

Arms wide open.

I have met You

The Way, the Truth, the Life

Able to teach me faithfulness

Able to envelope me with Your love

Able to ignite a hope so real

Able to give joy unspeakable

Ready to embrace me as I am

Ready to mould me to be more like You.

I have met You

And now there’s a beautiful newness in who I am.

Piece by Sylvia Ndombi