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I can’t keep up

I am trying to.

But every passing day feels

Like I’m fighting a losing battle

Everything is burdensome- even breathing.

They say do more of the things that make you feel alive (or is it happy?)

But what happens when

Even those things mean nothing at all?

What happens when I just oscillate from numbness to pain and back?

What am I supposed to do then?

 

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I can’t keep up

People are supposed to

Know how to balance activities… responsibilities

But all I can do at best is one thing a day

And most days the best I can do is try and keep breathing.

They say count every little thing a success- even breathing

But what happens when

What’s expected of me is more than to just stay alive?

What happens when staying alive actually means

Living up to a whole lot of expectations

And yet I have no strength or will to do anything?

What am I supposed to do then?

 

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I can’t keep up

Isn’t it better for everyone if I

Wasn’t breathing at all?

No one will expect anything out of a lifeless body (not even I)

And I don’t mean to be uncaring

But you will heal the broken hearts when I’m gone

Won’t you?

It seems like a much better option

Compared to the chaos that is

My life right now

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 Send help

Fix me.

Or is this my thorn in the flesh?

The one they say never really goes away?

But then if it is

Isn’t your grace supposed to be enough?

Enough for me to live life in abundance

In spite of the thorn?

I’m so far from actually living

To even talk about abundance would be a stretch.

Or is it that I am too blinded to see Your grace?

Show me, then.

 

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Send help

Any kind

Because I am slowly fading away

And I don’t think there’s coming back after that.

I’m not issuing threats

I know you don’t work like that

I’m just saying if at all there’s

A reason I should keep breathing

Now would be a great time to let me know.

Please send help.

I really can’t keep up- I have tried.

 

 

 


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